The past two days basically have been a little rough but so good if you don’t mind here it goes I’ll start with the rough yesterday I spent all day writing a paper on women empowerment which to start was madly rough and honestly I did not enjoy a second of it I am a pretty spacey person and I get distracted so easily so nearly every five minutes I had to take a break and then everyone told me I was procrastinating but I was so frustrated by he fact that I had to write this paper I almost broke down multiple times and then I had no shorts or jeans clean so I was wearing leggings even though I just wanted to tuck a shirt into something in hopes of looking androgynous but that didn’t happen my parents keep trying to get me out of my room which is great but it is the only place I can hide from the world and then today I was prepared for anything but completely not for what happened I was stuck in leggings today again and the paper I spent all day on I got a 92 which dropped my grade 2 points which sucks and my mom was trying to get me to put a bow in my hair which to be honest I don’t have a masculine haircut but it feels androgynous enough for me but not with a bow and we went to a friends house anytime she says my name she says Kaylee girl nobody knows me as Lee nor the fact that I don’t mind Lee and only some people know I have a negative connection to Kay but the girl part gives me anxiety and then everyone got on a tangent of doctors which I can’t stand nearly every memory I have from age 0-7 is from hospitals and they were talking about femininity and I could not take it I was sitting there with a hopefully good enough smile that didn’t look fake I hope at least but at least the past two days have not been terrible I have been working on an Instagram account where I am writing quotes and I am starting to feel confident enough to put my pronouns on it which to me is a huge step because the only place I am out is here and tomorrow I am going to the barbershop within my day and he is actually excited to take one of his children to the barbershop for the first time and I have one of my favorite outfits planned and I am just so excited I have also spent more time thinking about my gender I still identify as a demigirl and I still use she/they pronouns but I feel so much more comfy saying I use the term demigirl loosely I use it to describe my small connection to being female but I do feel quite a bit non-binary and I am happy with that
Thank you so much for taking time out of your precious days to read this don’t feel the need to reply I hope you are all wonderful and I am so sorry I had only posted one thing and now I am posting so much more also I absolutely love reading all of your posts and replying you all have beautiful hearts and you are wonderful human beings have a wonderful day