Cw/tw:? Self-hatred/depression idk

This is probably a one-off post but I might become more active again idk

Anything to do with identity makes me feel numb. It feels like I'm trying to fill a bottomless pit. Like I'm trying to find the lost pieces of an infinitely shattered self. I can't take it anymore. I don't even know my name anymore. I don't even know if my pronouns are right. None of this makes me feel anything anymore. I hate myself. I should've never joined this wiki. I still love you all

Probably gonna coin some genders later. Yea ik that probably sounds weird after reading all that