Dysphoria

Possible tw: dysphoria and bright colors?

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Hey guys I'm feeling too much like a girl today ugh

My brain is saying ur cis ur cis... Could someone tell me if these experiences are cis?

I look into the mirror, and I want. to. cut. my. hair. more. than. anything. but I'm too nervous

I shove my hair (I have really long hair) in my hat because I don't want it to show, even if I guess it looks fine

I try to pass when I go to the store or something, and I wear baggy clothes literally everyday to try to hide myself

I really want a binder even if I know I probably don't need one

I wish my shoulders were broader and my hips were smaller and my eyelashes weren't as long (I have long eyelashes and people always point them out 0n0)

I spend a lot of my free time looking at trans reddits and on here, obviously. I also take like are you trans quizzes like everyday

Yesterday I literally went to the boys bathroom at my sisters game, and I always want to go into the boys bathroom tho I'm not out.

_------_ this last one's kind of interesting_------_

I'm a late bloomer and sometimes when I try to look like a boy and I really think I do and I think, 'your face looks more masc, what if your parents found out and secretly put you on T or something" which I know is completely stupid unrealistic and dumb. But the thing is even though I don't really believe it, when I do wonder it I think if they did I probably would't mind I would just wanted them to have told me.

This is all kind of stupid... does anyone have any experience like this

thanks

cade he/ey

I suffer from gender dysphoria since I was 11, now I'm 18 years old and I still haven't taken hormones, I haven't had surgery and I haven't even changed my name on the certificate, because I live with a transphobic family, they treat trans people as aberration, the only people I came out to and accepted me were my brother and my non binary cousin.

Sometimes I cry when I have to wear a dress or when my family says "but you're a woman, so it's normal to say these things".

I have many masculine characteristics, I even cut my hair and wear looser clothes, but I still get mistaken for a girl when I use the men's bathroom.

I can't take this anymore, I hate to be treated like a girl...I just wanted a word of comfort, because I feel like I'll never be a boy.

I've been trying to do a bunch of money and bank stuff for a while now, and my mother keeps withholding my important documents from me. I still need proof of identity for this bank thing. What do I tell mom that I need my birth certificate for? Do I just go up to her and say, 'Hey mom, I need my birth certificate; it's for bank stuff'? She's also incredibly strict with our information like this. She won't even let me take my birth certificate with me if I move far away from her. I'm scared to talk to her about this because I don't want her to pry into my life more than she already has. I have no other forms to prove my identity; I don't have a driver's license (because she won't let me get one); and I have nothing but my birth certificate. I don't know what to do now.

I really don't want to go to the bank today and get an ID. Last night, my grandma told me she doesn't have anything with my name, face, and birthday, but she said, "No, but you can order your own documents. I can help you with that when I get home.💕🥰 Love you. 😘"

My social anxiety is eating me alive. I'm so scared to get my ID that I'm physically shaking. The thought of having my picture taken fills me with anxiety, and the idea of my dead name being permanently on my ID is unbearable. I *hate* my birth name. It's way too feminine for my taste and makes me feel terrible about myself and who I am. And now, it's going to be attached to me forever. Sure, I know I can change it, but that costs money, and I have no money. Everything is just spiraling out of control in my life.

— Rowan (he/they)

CW: Caps, Anxiety, Assassination, Cisnormativity, Fascism, Fear, Gender Dysphoria, Heteronormativity, Hopelessness, Misgendering, Politics, Religion, Self-hatred

This whole Donald Trump Project 2025 thing is really messing up my own perception of who I am. I can't even call myself a man, even though I AM A MAN. All I can think of myself as is a woman, a female, a lady, and I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT. It just makes me feel so BAD about myself and everything about myself and who I am as a person. Thinking of myself as a woman makes me feel like THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME. It feels like I'm living a lie, like I'm lying to everybody I love and care about, even strangers. All I feel is the unshakable feeling that there is something wrong with me. I don't want to live like this forever. I don't want to constantly lie to everybody; I don't want to feel bad about myself all the time. I just want to be myself. I just want to be happy with myself. I just want to live my life as I really am. I want people to use the correct name for me and the correct pronouns. I want to fall in love with the person that I love, not the gender that I'm supposed to love (Female x Male; cis-heteronormative). I just want to be happy. Is seriously giving up an entire nation's happiness to push your own fascist Christian agenda really worth it? I'm still always going to be the same thing: linumgender, pan, aego, and pronounfluid, but I'll never be allowed to tell people that. I'll never be allowed to tell people my correct name or pronouns if he wins. It's just horrible, gut wrenching hopelessness for the future. I'm not religious, but I pray to God that he doesn't win.

And with the assassination attempt that happened, it seems like he really is going to win. Since he survived getting almost assassinated, people are going to think that it was him defying nature and it was God's doing to save him, for Donald Trump to survive and become president. This just scares me. This scares me to my core. It's giving me a panic attack!

— Rowan (he/they)

CW: possible description of dysphoria

After taking a shower, I put on a headband so that way my hair stays out of my face whenever it dries, and the stupid headband is making me feel super feminine and girly! This gender shift is making my mind feel so uncomfortable! Maybe this is what mind dysphoria is. Well, I can tell you very much that I do not like this feeling. It just feels so uncomfortable and bad. I just feel so out of place in my body and gender now.

So… if I grew up thinking of myself as "one of the boys," understood male topics more than female topics, liked more traditionally male things (this was the early 2000s, everything was either strictly "male" or "female," especially where I grew up), had the strong feeling that I was meant to be born a male, girls made no sense to me, I understood memes about being male and barely understood memes about being a girl, and considered myself a "high level" tomboy—does all that make me a trans man? I've never really felt female apart from the body I was born as, which makes me feel like I'm not man enough to be a trans man, which doesn't make sense, but apparently it makes sense to my dysphoria.

But at the same time, I don't feel male or female. I'm kinda just… me.

Changes with HRT with trans men: Increase in muscle tone, redistribution of body fat (less in hips/breasts, more in stomach), development of facial and body hair, deepening of the voice, male pattern baldness and receding hairline (for some people), increased sex drive, increased appetite, skin texture changes (coarser), clitoral growth, change in scent of bodily fluids, vaginal atrophy & dryness, end of periods/menstrual cycle, and acne.

I don't think I ever want to do HRT, but I don't like my body at all. I don't want to do HRT, I just want to be AMAB.

I don’t know what’s going on with me. Just this very intense bad feeling about myself. The dysphoria has nothing to do with my body like it usually does, but more of what’s going on inside my head. Maybe I’m not queer, maybe I’m just masking, ya know, pretending to be something I’m not.

— Jayden (she/he/hey)

Can you not feel dysphoria but still be bummed out?

Like just a passing thought of like "oh.....................this isn't what i want." and then move on with your day. Like very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, very, little dysphoria.

TW: Family Dynamics, Mental Health, Coming Out Fears, Transphobia, Religious Conflict, Identity Struggles, Isolation, Internalized Transphobia, Emotional Distress

My aunt was over talking to my grandma, and she left and said "Hi" to me as she was leaving. When she left, my grandma came into my room and said that my aunt was so excited for me to move in with her. My mom (we live with my grandparents) is driving me crazy, so I’m going to move in with my aunt down the street. Her children have already switched bedrooms, and she's painting our room (her daughter and my (future) room). My grandma said that despite my aunt's youngest son throwing a fit about living with all girls, he doesn't mind it. Everyone knows how crazy my mom is, and ever since I was a little kid, my aunt has always been going on about how she wanted to adopt me. There are a couple days over a month until I’m 18 years old.

I'm kind of excited, but also really scared.

I want to come out to them. When I was playing BitLife with my aunt's eldest daughter a few years ago, my BitLife parent came out to me as trans, and I told my aunt's eldest daughter, and she reacted with disgust. Laughing, saying eww or gross (I don’t remember word for word what she said; I know she just acted with disgust, and it made me feel really, really bad (this was back when I thought I was simply an ally). But I like to think my aunt is more chill. My aunt is very soft-spoken. She talks really quietly and gently. I've never heard her say anything about the LGBTQIA+ community, but my family is heavily Christian, so I’m inclined to think she hates us. I mean, she is so bad for God and Jesus that she forces her kids to read the Bible every night. I already have a coming-out letter written and everything.

I'm just scared thinking that I'm going to have to live my whole life pretending to be CisHet and having to keep the real me hidden from everyone I love.

I drop small hits, like saying love is gross (aromantic), that I'm handsome, that I like boy things (transmasculine), etc. But I think they just think I'm not ready to date anyone yet and that I am a tomboy. But for me, being seen as a tomboy is better than being seen as a girly girl.

I'm at the point of tears right now, and I don't know why. I'm just scared and confused, and I'm glad that they're willing to house me, but still, I'm not a girl.........

Does anyone else get body dysphoria when you’re on your period?

This just gives me more reason why I wish I was born male.

So lately, I've started to cringe when I see or hear my birth name. I really don't like it. I don't know why, but I do. I guess because it's too gurly for my taste. but I don't know. I just want to legally change my name to 'Jayden'. It's gender-neutral, and I like it much more, but Jayden still isn't perfect enough for me to feel comfortable.

cw/sw: indirect period mention, brief caps lock

(cat for space)

(all of this is sarcastic tone)

i just *love* when i’m goin about my day and then my uterus decides it’d just be a FINE IDEA to throw a temper tantrum.

it’s just GREAT that i’m gettin gender and a lil species dysphoria at the same time rn because that just feels *awesome* on top of feeling like my abdomen is being ripped apart (/half-exaggerating) and my body feeling like it doesn’t match me at all.

(sorry for the rant ik this probably concerns nobody but i’m just pissed and feeling all irritated and need to spit this somewhere)

So lately at school, this dude, DB, has been calling me Ash and not my deadname and using he/him instead of she/her, even when I'm not around and I love it so much.

he's the most openly queer person at my school too so it makes me so glad that I'm transitioning more quickly than I thought i would.

Also, my dysphoria has been fluctuating bc of me slimming down i mean I love that I'm getting smaller but I hate that my figure is starting to show too much. I mean my hips are there along w/ my chest.

it's for some reason making my mental health worse but the euphoria is making it better.

how does this work?

Ashter He/Zem

Me! (There’s a mix of gender and species dysphoria)

Don’t hold me to the shape of the tail, I think I have one, but I don’t know what it looks like. I also have wings(that I get dysphoria from) but I forgot to add them, so just imagine wings in yellow(sometimes)

Btw, here’s the template

TW: religion, dysphoria

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Things that happened that are yay! /gen /pos

My friend got me a pendulum! And she uses/has used one herself!

It wasn’t all overwhelmingly religious

Generally very happy, wholesome, vibe

Things that happened that are yay. /sarc

95-year-olds with covid

Dysphoriaaaa

There were some religious parts and that were kinda uncomfortable for me

Why am I telling you this? I have no idea. :)

//caps

I've been binding for more than 8 hours and have worn the sports bra method thingy like 4 four days in a row. HOW DO I STOP IT??!!??!??!?! I know its bad but like euphoria because it semi smoothens my chest and euphoria but its bad to over-bind and i want to stop but cant; help pleaseee????

- Arson, He/Punk themed neos

Would put my school mascot but y'know privacy purposes

Anywho wrestling goes last and i gotta be there at 5 to get my warmup it doesnt start til 6 and it ends at 8ish

Anytime i see the cheer unis i remember me w/ long hair and how my chest looked in them with it emphasizing them and my chubby stomach

Dysphoria welcome old friend! /j

Ashterlin Xe/Xem