It's 1 in the morning, and dysphoria hates me, so you get to hear me rant about being feminine and how it's ruining my gender and thus my life.
TW: Dysphoria, caps
I wish I was AMAB so I could be a femboy. I want to be a femboy so BAD all of a sudden for no reason at all! Being a femboy just randomly popped into my head when I thought of myself and how I am a man, but wish to dress femininely.
Like I genuinely wish I looked like this one femboy I found online! The skinniness! The hair! The face shape! Just everything about this femboy is absolutely absolutely perfect, except that I like my boobs and don't wish to get top surgery!
I just feel so… validated and seen right now. Is this what I am? Is this who I really am? A person who has a masculine gender identity, but who chooses to present themselves femininely?
Maybe I'm luneboy.
Or maybe I'm just a femboy.
It feels like I have 2 forms: (there are 2 wolves inside you) tomboy and femboy… maybe I'm bigender, as sometimes it happens at the same time.
Feeling feminine is giving me gender euphoria instead of gender dysphoria like normal. But it's femininity in the way that boys are feminine, NOT in the way girls are feminine.
I feel a lot happier now! Ever since considering myself as a femboy it feels like something in my brain just clicked into place! It just feels so peaceful, ethereal, light, and just oh so amazing!
I want to be a goth/emo femboy!
I honestly hate how I look IRL. I just absolutely hate my appearance. But it's so hard to change, especially with how busy I am with everything going on IRL in my life right now.
IDK. Saying I'm a femboy brings me more gender euphoria.
I guess rosboy fits me more definition wise. I am a man who is feminine in appearance.
IDK what I want to look like. Feminine yes, but also masculine… I want to be a femboy and a tomboy at the same time. I'm not sure what to do… Is this a gender shift? Am I genderfluid?
I need to be punk! But I also want to be soft looking and wearing lots of pink!
I am much happier believing myself to be a feminine guy rather than a feminine girl.
Sometimes I feel like a masculine girl, feminine girl, a feminine boy, masculine guy, gender neutral, nothing at all, both a girl and a boy at the same time.
What label feels *right* to me?
Everything… and nothing all at the same time.
Well, I'm not a full man or woman, I'm kinda nothing, but also very feminine in the same way men are feminine in a girl way. I want my body to be that of a male (AMAB, cis man, whatever you want to call it) and I wish to be feminine in my gender presentation. I like everybody regardless of everything. If I find you attractive, which I most likely will, then I'm attracted to you, simple as that. I'm repulsed by the idea of personally engaging in sexual and romantic activity and having someone else sexually attracted to me (not romantically attracted to me, I'm more okay with that, but it's still pretty unwanted).
Rosboy, panromantic, and asexual?
Maybe my gender isn't anything related to being a girl and I just mixed up gender identity and gender presentation.
Why can't I be a feminine man? Nothing is saying I can't be but some mental block inside myself.
Am I actually non-binary or do I just like that word? How do I actually feel?
I can easily call myself lesbian, but I can never call myself even though I feel like a man no matter what I do I always have a female body. Again, it's some kind of mental block.
Whenever I consider calling myself demiboy, I feel… special? Why special? I've also considered this label many times, but not as many times as non-binary.
Genderfluid and pan? Non-binary and bi? Rosboy, panromantic, and aegosexual?
WHY IS IDENTITY SO HARD!?!??!?!?!?!
I'm a very truthful person, so lying about my identity and pretending to be something I'm not is not something I'm interested in, so I guess that's another reason why I want to find the perfect labels so bad.
Why is it so hard to accept my labels as me? I guess I do have internalized queerphobia but only towards myself. Other people are vibe so I don't care what they do or identify as.
Am I really he/she, or am I they/them, she/they, he/they? Expressing my thoughts through pronouns is a little easier than with words. She = woman, he = man, they = non-binary.
[rant over… for now at least]
— Rowan (they/them)