******[I can't find a way to make this sound not transphobic. So just know that I am //not// being transphobic; I'm just trying to specify what I'm experiencing in terms of "adult attraction" (since I know most of you guys are under 18...)]******
CW: Caps, mention of male and female genitalia (nothing graphic), Generalizations
I'm a lot happier thinking of myself as a boy because I am a boy (AFAB). I've always been a boy. It's just that the outside doesn't show what the inside is. What I am is a boy who is gender neutral and occasionally feels like a girl who is attracted to both boys and girls and everyone else, but is mostly satisfied with fantasies and doesn't always 100% of the time actually want to date anybody, but occasionally I have a super intense and depressing longing for a romantic companionship with somebody.
Damn, if I wasn't multisexual, then I would actually consider myself straight, meaning that I am attracted to girls. The first time I've ever actually considered myself as that. I don't know why today I just feel very aligned with being a male.
You know what? I'm also actually incredibly gay. Like [male genitalia]! But [female genitalia]! Both are so good and amazing, and I want both! I don't care what their internal sense of identity is; you either have a [male genitalia] or a [female genitalia], no one between (disregarding intersex because that’s usually a chromosome or hormone thing). It doesn't matter if you were born with it or not. I do not care. If you have a [male genitalia] or a [female genitalia], then there is a HIGH likelihood that I will be attracted to you.
Like, obviously, I care for, respect, and love somebody's gender identity, regardless of what it is. I'm not a jerk.
But when it comes to romantic attraction, if I find a person's physical attributes attractive (aesthetic attraction), which is usually regardless of their gender identity, then I am attracted to them romantically, but in regards to sexual attraction, I am attracted to literally ANYBODY (ANY GENDER) who has male or female genitalia. This includes LITERALLY EVERY SINGLE HUMAN BEING ON THIS PLANET!
I'm not saying that someone's gender identity isn't valid; I'm just saying it isn't a factor when I'm attracted to someone.
— Rowan (he/they/vae)