Tw: gore (gender concepts) ummmmm obsession feeling (thats all I can think of rn)
Gender is strange and fun its funny because I feel concepts of love like that fantasy love that crazy unstable love or that really flamboyant masc fem love like in Noel's Lament but never actual attraction irl or even if I do I dont bother to look into it but the genderlove now it's like a weird obsession but as a creature not human but Gorey just small bits of that horror theme my brain is so silly it makes my gender feel all these concepts of love but never irl directly aspects of certain attraction can appear and will influence me but its tide how music makes me feel in that moment then it's gone. Silly brain also I am a feel-in-the-moment type of guy and since it is only in moments not all the time I don't look into it the attraction labels I guess that is also how I feel about gender since the song affects that gender in that moment it new that's how I create
xenoplaylists actually based on what songs make me feel that gender sometimes I can feel that gender again other times its fractions.
Goddamn the gorelove is so strong right now! its unstable its most likely because of the song I'm listening to. My humanflux made my human side so low
I feel like a creature but in a gore obsession-type way but its calm and hollow yet so unstably dangerous. My gender has been more gorey recently and more unstable making me feel concepts of gore, and love while me being a creature I don't really see myself having a form like before I knew I wasn't this human but now it's blank. Do you guys know names like goreish names things that have that obsession unstable feeling or meaning? Oh and I dont feel masc or fem at all just a creature I feel weird- i never felt this before its not bad its like oh wow who the hell Im i- You know in yansim ayano cant feel anything its like that in the outside like my gender is cake but as I go through the layers I feel these things I know there's gorecake and stuff. I wonder how long this will stay dunno.
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