Spikegender

How do you feel about masculinity or being masc and subsets of masculinity do you like he/him pronouns masc type names or neutral names or dressing as you/or neutral

Also this is just a beginning conversation to my point of this,the conversations are just to keep the post going and not just die.

I feel euphoric while day dreaming of looking masculine and or having a masc voice,I want a deep voice,short hair(kinda I just hate the heat😂)and I want to try make up hair on my face and I want the male and my cisgender parts(I’m female at birth)I also have very masculine traits Probably that’s what my mom said and she watched me grow up.i still have some normal likes and dis likes and masculine likes and dis likes don’t make your gender ye but gives me euphorbia being labeled masculine when doing something and being different I feel like gender doesn’t fit me but the traits are there.I tried this once somewhere but I get really anxious people would harrase or bully me so I skipped it but I’m free and I feel pretty safe her and I’m not busy,so I gusse my name,I’m still gonna be anonymous I use Wol or nova as my name in this post and post only(please untill I says I don’t mind the name and pronouns)and i like to be label he/him with my pronouns,and kinda treat me like a man even though I don’t think people treat male and female people differently to badly

So ADHDGender is it when like others hyperfixate on gender and trying understand their identity or is it just a gender based around adhd and how others really can’t tell their gender or both?(I have ADHD and I’ve been hyperfixting on gender for three or two years now and I really kinda am annoyed on how I can’t stop it brings me joy but it’s getting annoying how I keep remaking myself while I know I’m Agender,Femine genders,and male spike but I like remaking and figuring out new idenites and now I wanna hyperfixate on sexulilty and figure myself out even thought I’m Probaly just Omnisexual grey sexual polyamory too..it’s just been exhausting I left the fandom and figure my gender out but I always remake myself)and does ADHDGender also apply to fluidity and binary genders?