Please help me out!
So I guess it skipped my mine,but I would always see alters/systems and I got addicted to watchin TikTok’s for a day then pass on to another thing I’d laugh(no offense)but then leave cause I knew the TikTok’s I were watching were mostly fake,and yeah.then a year ago I was trying figure my identity out than the alterhumanity thing came back and I started getting educated on it but I never thought of me being one or having alters I still don’t belive I have one but I also want one.then two or one a couple months before hand my mother talked about my sleepwalking and I agree I never remembered any of it and how sometimes my sleep never added up to what I liked or hated while sleep me(who I used as my first alter)i identified her as in 3rd person like I sued she/her never me/I and my mother thought it was weird I did it while I was the person who was dreaming it(I sleep walk and talk and have many disorders)so then me being frustrated and ignoring the thought of what she said the did,and alterhumnaity came around I had a close friend who was alterhuman and I followed them I was mirroring them I still belive I just mirriored(can some people do that?)them and thought about in the past I use to act and play as an animal I never was when I was a kid and just concluded I was alterhuman while to be honest my inner self never wanted to pursue it and would never stick to it,I thought I wanted to join some trend that was going around even though some may have not been acting I internally knew what I was doing but I don’t belive I knew,and I think three weeks after that my other friend was saying how they had alters and then I reflected on my dreams and how I almost intentionally I belive dissociated while I never knew the did so anyways on to my experiences of my system? I use to try and imagine her but she looked like me and I was very upset how I could never imainge anything other then me,and how it was always same gender and likes I have then I looked and tried to figure out why then I came across dulafront when my alter is present(I never get amnesia)and is present with all my tasks then I looked into BPD which I still believe I have,and that’s really all I came up with a different look and fake personailty I still think for my alter and name and age is 13 and down..so any ideas am I just mirrioing,or neurodivergent,did,osdd,a flag anything will be helpful please help me out!🙏😭
