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Hey guys I'm feeling too much like a girl today ugh
My brain is saying ur cis ur cis... Could someone tell me if these experiences are cis?
I look into the mirror, and I want. to. cut. my. hair. more. than. anything. but I'm too nervous
I shove my hair (I have really long hair) in my hat because I don't want it to show, even if I guess it looks fine
I try to pass when I go to the store or something, and I wear baggy clothes literally everyday to try to hide myself
I really want a binder even if I know I probably don't need one
I wish my shoulders were broader and my hips were smaller and my eyelashes weren't as long (I have long eyelashes and people always point them out 0n0)
I spend a lot of my free time looking at trans reddits and on here, obviously. I also take like are you trans quizzes like everyday
Yesterday I literally went to the boys bathroom at my sisters game, and I always want to go into the boys bathroom tho I'm not out.
_------_ this last one's kind of interesting_------_
I'm a late bloomer and sometimes when I try to look like a boy and I really think I do and I think, 'your face looks more masc, what if your parents found out and secretly put you on T or something" which I know is completely stupid unrealistic and dumb. But the thing is even though I don't really believe it, when I do wonder it I think if they did I probably would't mind I would just wanted them to have told me.
This is all kind of stupid... does anyone have any experience like this
thanks
cade he/ey