I looked up the Hallmark signs of Gender dysphoria and I have all of them-
also combined with everything else, {read my other posts, linked before.} its more and more likely im trans-
I will not accept it though, I'm in *severe* denial-
(Sorry to the mods if this counts as low effort- )
@Crazycoolperson..ithink @AnxiousChaos Thanks for the help. It's just very confusing because all of these feelings have been ramping up over the past few months, and it's a struggle.
I swear, me questioning my gender is like: “sure i want to crossdress, shave my legs, sound like a girl, have a more feminine name, be referred to as she/her, wanna take hrt, got really euphoric when i had a dream of getting gender reassignment therapy. and when my sister did my hair- i'm not trans though.”
My egg (is that offensive? idk) will never crack. its reinforced with titanium-
(or maybe its depressing? Depends if you've been following my posts-)
TW: Bullying, Mentioning of Slurs, Self-Hatred (Kinda)
Link to previous post, as this wont make sense without it: https://gender.fandom.com/f/p/4400000000000108885
Ok, so I've been watching a lot of a certain YouTube channel which deals with Boys crossdressing. (I'm not naming it. I'm sure you can figure it out.) and the more I look at it...
The more I wanna crossdress.
And, Of course, the more Dysphoria I feel.
And the more I realize, I kinda WANT to be a girl.
I wanna be referred to sometimes as a She/Her, I want my voice to be more Feminine. I wanna look Feminine. I look at girls (Or Femboys.) And I wanna look like them. I wanna Sound like them. I wanna be able to dress in girls clothes, without the fear of being disowned...
But...
I don't know.
I guess it's the fear of being ridiculed, or worse, for (Possibly) being Trans.
Hell, People corner me in the bathroom, hurling slurs at me for being BI. somebody said I was mentally insane for even QUESTIONING my gender.
I thought the feeling of Being eaten alive from the inside out for holding a secret for 3 years was bad, (The secret of me being Bi) but now...
I feel like this feels worse.
I need help.
Please.
Fellas, I'm making an experiment. I'm making my friend refer to with She/Her pronouns, and see if I get euphoric. (IDFK why I'm doing this...)
Off-Topic comment, in an Off-Topic Thread.
Yall have a GSA? All that my school has is, like, One club...
My supportive friend is buying me Thigh highs!
I can't wear girls clothes (Or buy them) At home, so my Trans Friend is getting me some things!
So, I just got caught looking at Femboy outfit ideas in class...I'm doomed. :l
Im Amab (I may be trans I dunno read my previous post) and I was in the car with my legs crossed and I looked over to my sister who had HER legs crossed, and I just Felt very feminine (and Therefore happy).
Then I spoke. (I hate my deep male voice)
Ugh.
So, uh funny story about my gender-
Im Amab (I may be trans I dunno read my previous post) and I was in the car with my legs crossed and I looked over to my sister who had /her/ legs crossed, and I just Felt very feminine (and Therefore happy).
Then I spoke. (I hate my deep male voice)
Ugh.
So, I identify as a Bi male, but recently ive been getting a lot of "gender envy" and just feeling oddly feminine at times.
And recently, i had a dream where i got Gender reassignment surgery, and when i woke up, i felt oddly euphoric. And also, I never dream. I dream like, 4 times a year.
Another thing is that i do want to crossdress, (i already have a skirt :3) but, unlike most Femboys, i kinda...WANT to be misgendered?
I need some help.
